I ain't tryin' to be like that I ain't tryin' to be like that I ain't tryin' to be like that I ain't tryin' to be like that
Shit is reminiscent To what I listened to Felt the blues back then Now black and blue From the muse Bruised from the years that came and went Only to keep the ruse Slowly turn to pitch the tune Back to what it used to be like What it felt like A moment that I can't relive Adolescent mind Finding joy in playing Pick-Up Sticks Punting cans across the alley-way Like a corner kick To hear the crowd roar for this kid And yo, I never quit but, I wish the days were simple Like they used to be Guess that thought is simple but I'm talking honestly And honesty ain't hard to come by when you're living solemnly But even so A solemn look can overtake the quality of Any joyous moment 'Cause that's how life works Ups and downs Weights on my shoulder Push me to the ground Baggage under my eyes After every year that comes around And I can't help but feel helpless, jaded, and run-down but
I ain't tryin' to be like that I ain't tryin' to be like that I ain't tryin' to be like that I ain't tryin' to be like that
Felt that things were off 3 homies lost in year Wasn't clear why it all had to happen Even chopped it up with my boy the night before his last breathe Talking about his mind state and past regrets What could I've done differently to change the outcome A domino effect that made his game into a zero-sum Got that phone call during a work day from his mom Bout her son who left to float to heaven Left us feeling lost Pain is gone but sadness remains Time moved forward but shit, ain't nothing the same It ain't as bad trudging forward though Playing this game Sometimes the more that you lose The more that you can gain Like a heartbreak placing me in a mirror's frame Insecure, self-esteem was low, feeling ashamed There wasn't anyone to blame for my toxic traits So from that point on forward I kept repeating the phrase
